What
is the truth about Elliot? A young , rich , attractive guy , attended to college in Santa Barbara, driving expensive BMW? Was he mentally ill? Was he been mistreated in childhood and that trauma made him act so cruel? Was he just an idiot, brat, a fool, a madman - which is the most quoted and useful explanation? From nearly twenty, short videos posted on youtube, the following picture of Elliot emerges:
- He was sensitive . Sensitive to beauty. Not in a narcissistic way. But in real terms. Sunset at the beach or park were places where he says he found peace.
- He had a happy childhood. It is emphasized in his statements .
- At the age of 22 years he was almost completely rejected socially. He had, according to what he said, no positive relationships. In particular, no relationship with the girls.
- He almost obsessively wanted love and sex. It is difficult to assess in what order, but it seems that he want them both and simultaneously.
- He had a very high opinion about themselves.
Elliot suffered. You can laugh at that. Because
the suffering of the young healthy American, rolling across California an
expensive BMW, suffering from social rejection and lack of sex and love,
seem completely absurd. But the suffering has only one real dimension. It is a subjective.
It does not matter, for the man, how absurd are the reasons for his suffering. That's what is real for him, is the pain he feels. "It hurt me that I had no shoes until I saw a man with no feet "
Elliot had no positive relationships. Aside
from his obsessive need for love and sex with women, he apparently had
no one with whom he could share his real thoughts. He published his (humiliating in some way) confessions on youtube ( "
I'm 22 and I'm a virgin ") , probably because he did not have anyone to talk about this.
He was obsessive for love and sex with girls / girlfriends. The
whole environment in which he grew up and where he stayed, everything he experienced and what he knew, have said to him: "this is what life is about". We all have sex , walk together, go to a party. The word "love", should be understood here as an emotional commitment to the
relationship, not as a charity in the higher sense of the word , "for
good and for evil, till death" , etc.
He was sensitive. His sensibility was to him a reinforcement of the pain he felt of the rejection and lack coveted relationship. Sensitive to emotions. Both positive and the negative.
He was narcissistic. He considered himself the as almost ideal, supreme. His statement when proudly displays sunglasses, and says that it is Armani for $ 300, is so absurd that it 's unbelievable.
He hated the world. Because
the environment brought him pain and suffering, which results from lack of possibility to fulfill his desires, he hated this environment. He hated these people. He came to the conclusion that they are small, vile and evil. That the world deserves destruction, and if it were in his power, he would turn it into piles of corpses and streams of blood. That is all what people deserve - he thought.
Conclusions.
Sensitivity is sometimes dangerous. With no discipline or religion may prove fatal. Sensitive people often kill themselves because they are not able to
tolerate negative feelings, which they receive a hundred times stronger than thick-skinned majority.
Cultural and social patterns have their consequences. This is not a stand-alone Rodger Elliot choice, to shape his consciousness into the belief, that sex and love are essential. His obsession was largely due to what he saw around himself. Lifestyle, environment, the image of life in the media, etc.
Absence of God in the world or in the environment results in two consequences. Selfishness, which consist in making one's judgements, the final assessments and the only truth. Replacement of perspective of life as something bigger than we can experience, with cultural patterns (referred to in the previous
paragraphs).
Eventually, we must answer the question: Was Elliot was right? Was
it really unfair that his classmates enjoyed love in the
light of the setting sun, while he bitterly chewed total
rejection and loneliness ? Is humanity really deserve condemnation?
It seems that a serial killer was right. It
was unfair, that such a handsome, rich, intelligent, kind and
sensitive boy, was rejected, while almost everyone else enjoys free love and sex . Humanity actually deserves to be destroyed.
It seems, however, that these are not the words of Elliot. He rather repeated a sequence of emotions and reasoning, described in the Scriptures as satanic. Repeated that vibration along with vibration of a sense
of his own uniqueness and superiority. All it results in unbridled
hatred, which materialized in the form of murder.
Elliots logic was right. But he was wrong, because he was not entitled, as no one is entitled, to judge people in that way. He was wrong, because one deserve nothing. It is a big lie, which no one explained to him. Humanity, despite the fact that actually deserves condemnation, has been saved. No meanness and injustice will change that. Nothing will change the simple truth, that in relation to another human being, we can stand on the side of God or side Satan. This first forgives and gives you time. The other judges and wants to kill. Right now.
This is the civilization with no real sacred feeling and sacred thoughts. The dark night of suffering, hatred and death, stemming from a desire of good without God. Our desire - seduces us. Our decision to make ourselves the final criterion of everything - kills us. "I will be their God " - said Rodger Elliot. He doesn't know. That
being God for the people, consist in the fact that God suffers for them, till his own death.
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Apology. I am not an english speaker, so... forgive me language mistakes.
